WTF People?

I am still so pissed right now, that I can feel my blood boiling and churning. Someone explain to me how this fuck--ng makes sense?

Last night I go out to a bar, and I have $5 in my little clutch. Then one of my friend pays me back $20 and so does another one...so now I have $45 in 2 pockets of my bag. When I leave the bar I check to see if the money is there, and it is. Then I go to another friends house where there is a party and chill, drink and smoke hookah. When I leave, I check to see if everything is there and it is. THEN I go back to my BFs place, and eat some wings in the living room and take off my shoes and scarf (not necessarily in that order). At this time, I know the money is in the clutch because I can see it when put it on the table. Yes, it was in 2 different places in the purse, but if it fell out, there still would have been money in the zippered part!!!
So of course I go to sleep and leave my purse in the living room, not even thinking that it's a big deal...well clearly something happened from the time I went to sleep and the time I woke up, because guess what? There is no money in my clutch anymore in the morning. Everything besides the cash is still there: CC, ID, camera, EVERYTHING! WTFFFFFF. So someone please explain to me what the fuck is wrong with the person who took it?!?!!? Obviously there is no 100% way to prove who it was becuase it's not like I saw someone physically take it out. :( :( :( This shit always happens to me, even when I'm careful with my things, clearly I'm just not careful enough. And it's not even about the money, it's about the principle of this act. Are you supposed to carry everything on you 100% of the time and watch your shit like a hawk? Where should you feel like you can trust people to not take your belongins? Shouldn't you trust those around you?!?!?!?!? GRRRRRRRR

College

Ok. So I'm gonna write this post even though I'm hesitant. But since America is such a great free country (hmm hmm) I'm gonna give it a go.
First, I wanna give a shout out to the STUPID ASS MOTHER FFFFF-ING UNIVERSITY OF ILLINOIS TRUSTEES who let unqualified students into the school because of connections etc. I seriously am so bitter toward this dumbass school and am glad u will be going thru legal preceedings for the next few years. I'm glad u fuc---rs have to "voluntarily resign" and I hope ur image will be forever tainted. With that said, let me give my piece about UW Madison and it's finances...hahahaha
So I was speaking with my friend (actually from University of Illinois) and she brought up exactly what I have been pondering for the last few months. We are both immigrants, born in another country, both our parents did NOT go to college and we are 1st generation college students in our respective families. Did Madison ever, EVERRRRR provide me information about possibilities for students who are new to college? Did Madison ever send me shit about Financial aid? Did Madison ever make it easy to receive scholarships? HELL NO! This school is just so rediculous when it comes to finances that it boggles my head. When I have questions about things parents would know how to answer if they had been thru this, then who am I supposed to ask? Let me give another example...
So as I said, I was not born here and am the first one to go to college... so at a school like Madison, I do consider myself somewhat a minority. I look white and my skin color is "white" but I do not consider myself American at all... Well, let's take someone whose parents both went to college, grandparents were born in the United States, and one set of GREAT grandparents is from a country like...Mexico let's say(I am choosing this because I know for 100% Madison offers plenty of scholarships to this minority). So this person, in Madison will likely get some sort of Scholarship for being a minority. DO NOT GET ME WRONG here people, but this honestly does not make sense to me. The scholarships are great and do build diversity on our campus, but what about the people in Chicago who are smart and do not have the opportunities others have, that will never go to school, will never have a higher education? Why does the dept of education and universities not consider them? Instead, you give scholarships to build and foster diversity to people who are 4, 5, or even 6 generations removed from a certain minority, when there are minorities and people who ACTUALLY NEED money and scholarships. Now, I do not think ALL people who get scholarships like the Chancellors Scholarship, the McNair program, and Powers-Knapp scholarship are not deserving...BUTTTTTTTT I have done my research and it seems like some people do not deserve it, or at least they can pay for college freely themselves without too much of a struggle (in state tuition is less that 5000/semester for God's sake) UGHHH I cannot even begin to express my frustration.
I honestly hope this did not come off wrong...but for example, the Chancellors scholarship pays for FULL TUITION and $800 for books (HAHAHHAAHHAA OMG) and yes it does help with school, but can we not all use money for books? Could we all not use free money given to us by the government? Yes we could.

FFFF the Bullshit

As I walk into the public library in my hometown, my eyes start tearing up and I get the sick feeling in my stomach that has been coming on and off for the past few weeks. I think, "I'm never going to get to study at College Lib ever again, or at Memorial" and then the feeling gets worse. I think we take for granted our college life...and don't realize it until AFTER you've already graduated and you HAVE to move on. In a while, when I look back at this post I'll laugh, but now is not the time when I can even smile :( This is super Emo, and so not me, but I'm gonna write what I feel. Anyway, so I've been coming to the lib because I can't get any work done at home, either it's my parents bothering me, or the tv being a distraction, or whatever else. So I've updated my CV and Resume, did my AIESEC stuff online, and will start looking for an "internship" ASAP.
I've been missing Madison so much and am kind of regretting coming back to Illinois because I miss my friends, my family is super annoying (well my mom and dad that is), and I miss the @ers that I LOVE! The good thing about being back is I have my car, am close to the airport, and am not drinking at all pretty much...so I'm much healthier. But I have had more time to just reflect on my college years. I had toooooooo much time because I had a dream about graduation last night, wait a nightmare NOT a dream, and ohhhh wait...graduation already passed, so that nightmare is a reality. Yea I know you can sense the sarcasm and I'm usually such a positive person, but about this I'm just super sad. I just don't want to leave Madison...actually let me correct myself. My best friends, Linds, Ray, Melina and Ali...and even Schuelks, will not be in Madison this year. Carrie is there but only for a semester or so I think...so why am I even soooo sad? My baby will be in Madison and so will my AIESEC bitches, but I can always go back and visit. I think what is hitting me sooooo hard is the fact that we are all growing up and more or less going in our own directions and we are not "college kids" anymore. Besides, what is college without the people that make it the amazing experience that it is right?
So, the second thing Ive been reflecting on is scholarships. I wont even get into this becuase I know Ill write something in a way I dont mean to, but Im really pissed off at UW Madison for their lack on informing those who deserve and should be offered scholarships. I just think colleges that are huge (like Madison) do not do as good of a job as they should for providing information and resources to students...to some they do, and to some, they do NOT, that's for sure.
As Ayman told me, "write a letter" hahahahha. I think I will! Keke always said that if I want to get rid of "bad juju" I should say something or deal with it, and these letters that I will write will at least let people know what a student at UW thinks. (I'm gonna write manyyyy letters) There is always time for action bitches. HAH
Song of the Moment: Lil Wayne- Always Strapped
PS. OMG Weezy is on top of his shit. So many new songs AND his America's Most Wanted Tour. Holllllaaaaaaa

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PS. Did I mention that I set up the wireless internet in my house all by MYSELF? Who knew!? I keep impressing/surprising myself as the days go on ;) GIRL POWER! (hahhaha)

Summer Sweetness

I can't tell if I effingggg LOVE u Beyonce, or hate YOU >:/ I do know I hate that outfit though

Soooooo the trip to Michigan is almost finalized! I will be going with Melina either on Wed or Thurs to visit the Bators in Detroit...then we're off to Lewiston for some beach, boat, and booze madness :):):) I CANT WAIT! I get to see my dad again, and practice my Polish (ahhahahahahah) with Mr Bator ;) Thennnnn my baby and I are gonna figure out the 4th of July ANDDDDD then I get to go on a long vacation back to Nashvileeeeee!!! YAYYYY YAYYYY YAYYYY!!!! soooo exciting. Also, I might have found a subletter (maybe??) and someone to sell my furniture to, that I would have had to throw away otherwise... So i guess Ill be going to Madison tomorrow...and maybe Ill do some shopping today for MICHIGAN!!!!
Once again, enjoy the pictures...I'll make comments on why I chose a certain few :]

hahahah the Hangover!

People during Communism in Eastern Europe-- forgot what the term was called

My baby and his shoes!

Need to have a pool similar to this :)

Ayman

Self explanitory for me and my boo. The city of LOVE

Have I posted this one already? REMINDS ME 100% of Ayman

Who do you think this reminds me of?

What I like to do at the bar with my baby ;);-0 HAHAHHA

This better be Ayman when we grow up

Hello All...

Hi everyone! So I know it's been a while but I've been super busy (AKA Lazy as ffffff). Things I'm excited about: Michigan for lil Phil's b-day, 4th of July, my new laptop charger (not!!!), getting my life together, and last but not least, having the best BF in the world.
I NEED A JOB! I'm sitting at Caribou Coffee and have finished my resume, more or less. My friend Katie is sitting across from me doing HW (so studious!) Also, I FINISHED THE LAST HARRY POTTER BOOK!!!! :):):):) Yayyyyyy! So good!

My continuation of Nashville:
On Monday, Ayman and I went to the mall and I think we met with Viraj and his GF at Qdoba. It was a while ago so I forget the exact days... The last day, we went to lunch w his moms and I won't go into detail about the other things...inappropriate for your little ears. ;) Anyway I missed Ayman sooooo much that he decided to "surprise" me in Madison. Like I could ever be caught off guard, yeah right!!!!!! Anyway, I asked too many questions and got mad so he had to tell me :] I should be a detective! We had fun in Madison and I made a pact that I will not drin much anymore because that just leads to T.R.O.U.B.L.E., broken cameras and phones, and madness. :(

Anywhooooo... I went to victorias secret today and got some thangs ;) Cant tell you what they are because its also inappropriate :))))
Last but not least...HERE ARE SOME IMAGES I'VE BEEN COLLECTING that i like:

This one goes out to the one I love...

Because he threatened that if I don't make a new post, he'll never read my blog again!!!

So this post will be all about the AMAZING time I had in Nashville, Tennessee!

I got there last Friday morning and Ayman and I went out to eat...yummy! Of course I didn't finish my food and ate Ayman's instead...and he let me, what a GREAT boyfriend! Thennnnnn I met "Momma Dukes" yikes!!!!! She was nice though, but I was pretty much prepared for the worst... I got her a present...a really cool plate thingy that I would have liked for myself! In the evening, I met Ayman's big sissssssssss!!!! She's awesome too, and loves her baby brother soooo sooo sooo much it's so adorable and precious!!! We went to dinner with her friends (who OMGGGG Alana is prolly one of the most hilarious people and Chantal is sooooooo pretty...in my head I was like "Ayman, how often do u hang out w ur sister's friends..." you know, the way some girls feel threatened or some bullshit!) ANY WHOOOOO we went to this really southern place right by Meharry...

Monell's!!!!

So at this place, you sit at a huge table (there's like another 10 people sitting with us--so 15 or so total!) and you all pass around the food, like you would at Thanksgiving dinner...there's an open and friendly vibe. I sat next to this guy who was actually a UW Madison alum, and now likes in Washington and was also visiting Nashville!!! Southern people also have really cool accents, now I also see where Ayman gets his "Yes, Ma'am" and "Yes, Sir" from! Anyway, you eat as much as you can, and I was sooooo full!!! There were def like 3 food babies in my tum tum! After that, we went to a wine and cheese party, and I met some more of Azza's friends, who were all soooo nice and made me feel really comfortable :) Then we went out to celebrate my baby's 21st birthday!!!!! I tried to get him drunk, but he wouldn't have it!!! Instead, I got drunk :\

Now to go off on a tangent, all us girls know that we love when men are chivalrous...if that isn't present, you can move your ass towards the door. As much as I say "Ayman, don't pay for this, don't pay for that...blahblahblah" it's the thought that counts, and the fact that he does EVERY TIME just shows something you know?! And yea, us girls like to do nice things too, but the fact is, that guys should still offer at least!!! :):):):) And that is why I love my baby (well that is just a little reason)

So this is my plate, that filled me up well!!!

Also, I'm writing this post while talking to Ayman on the phone, but he thinks I'm on facebook, so I can surprise him with this!!!!

Ok, so that Friday was a funnnn night! Oh yea, we also opened his birthday gift!!! I got him his favorite cologne (yum yum yum!!!!!) a "fitted" that he mentioned he was gonna get for himself, and last but not least....HIS FAVORITE ARTICLE OF CLOTHING...a few cool pairs of socks!!! :]:]:]

On Saturday, Ayman and I ate breakfast with his mommy, and then he took me downtown for a surprise, which was a ...........MASSAGE!!! Excuse me, a couple's massage!!! What a thoughtful boyfriend!!! So that was an hour long massage, and felt soooo good! thanks again baby! And keep in mind, it was a surprise so it was even better!!!! YAYYY! That puts a smile on my face! Later, Ayman and I went to Ombi (his fav restaurant) for our anniversary dinner, and it was delicious and I had a strawberry mojito!!! Thennnn we went to a bar and I just loved being with himmmm (I know, so cornyyyy. We all know I am! DUH)

Also Saturday Ayman and I went to see a movie and went to another mall. Oh yea...on Friday we went to a different mall where I got to try on...

Anyway, I tried on engagement rings at Tiffanys for fun...but let me tell you about this one! I had to sit down to put it on, and when I looked at it...well basically you couldn't stare at it for too long because it hurt your eyes!!! YIKES!!! Personally, I thought it was too much and not really necessary...I don't want my finger cut off by some robbers in the future... Oh yeaaaa also on Friday, we went to this hookah place where I met Ayman's boys, Rom and Viraj!!! And we all got into a little arguement about the kind of engagement rings their wives are getting/NOT getting....

Back to Sunday...we went to Viraj's house to play a little bit of 21...and I pretty much played with the puppy the whole time, ohhhh wait, that was Ayman!!! He was sooo cute! All I wanted to do was to kiss and hug him (Ayman that is, not really the puppy, caz my baby is cuter!)

That is a picture of the 2 cutest babies ever!!!

Ok, so I will continue my adventures in Nashville tomorrow, because now I'm gonna drink some wine and watch a movie or something...